wanting to be the one to caress you tonight...

so. finally im in the eighth grade, a tucker creek senior. how fun. i dont wanna go to high school, im scared to leave the familarity iv grown accustomed to at the middle school. i have issues with change i guess. iv been feeling soo lonely. like i really need someone to help me through things. i just need a boyfriend. theres this one guy...my friend went out with him for like 2 days but broke things off cause he was too touchy-feely and he liked to cuddle ya kno?? (on a side note, theres this guy on fear factor who has to drink this gross shit and hes like just downing it like a milkshake. it makes me wonder...is he a little cocksucking whore whos used to chugging nasty shit most people gag back up) anyways...the guy, hes really kool. hes funny and hes a big flirt and iv seen a little bit of a sweet romantic in him, just a tad little pinch. i have a little suspicion he likes me cause at school hes been flirting with me a little more than usual. but ey w.e. i hate people who are closeminded and dont accept who i am just because they dont understand. it bugs me. i wish things were all just smooth as silk and perfect. but who am i kidding.


so heres my little obscure song that i just wrote like out of no where. some of it is lines i got from something i was reading that i messed with a bit, was inspired by them. heres the end result:

your words touched me like micheal jackson touched that little boy
with a reason to wear my tan line above my denim jeans
but its not like that charms getting any use
wasting away like a depressed emo boy
having a mental breakdown at the high school senior prom
your keeping it all inside is more than you couldve known
to tear me to shreds inside
me ripping up sheet after sheet of ruined lyrics
and anxious gestures in public places making me cringe
this whatever we have is borderline pathetic and over the line dramatic
youre acting like you have to care
but o you love to stare
after me with baby blues blazing
from mary jane a bursting heart and suspicions of everything life can bring
its you thats ruining this
our happily ever after
fuck the ever after i just need a night with my pen
to transfer the epitome of everything good
to something less frightful and pained as this broken relationship
you throw back in my face
the secret is youll never learn
and forever ill die a virgin of your love


~*~SONG OF THE MOMENT~*~
brand new. thats all iv got to say. check out anything by them, they kick ass. couple days ago i was into fall out boy but now i cant get enough of brand new.